The Who What When Where and Why that you may want to concern yourself with

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When, Where & What:

In the spirit of being our own constant reminder that we are valuable, purposeful and destined for greatness, we must have what I refer to as a safe space. A safe place can be of physical form (a park, a body of water, your closet, a hobby) or mental form (meditation through yoga or being still) and it is a place that you retire to in any moment where you feel torn apart, broken, stagnant, confused, hurt, defeated, berated and belittled in your life. It’s a place where you go to find peace, relax, relate and release through talking out loud, thinking things through, practicing breathing techniques, being alone to recharge or rejuvenate, calm down and re-center yourself to emerge like the phoenix.

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Why:

The reason we must cultivate an atmosphere in our lives for such a space/place to exist is because if we rely on someone to do this for us, they may not be available for us one day. Not because they don’t want to be, but perhaps because they can’t be for one reason or another. (They are sick themselves, going through and processing their own set of issues, on a trip, extended vacation, at work, not able to talk, in their own safe place where they cannot invite the troubled of the world in while they are taking time to themselves. etc.)

While you are there, you must keep in mind the importance of your health and well-being, being the single most important thing for your survival.

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Also keep in mind that this place does not replace the need to talk to another individual who may be able to aid and offer guidance to us through our troubles, along with perspectives, advice and wisdom. It’s merely a place that we can rely on, in the absence of that individual that will sustain us. In my Christian Faith, they will say… it’s where you “have a little talk with Jesus.” This conversation transpires internally. Reach deeply within, where that seed of faith is and nourish it. This is where your confidence, safety and security rest. Bring it back to the forefront in this time and trust yourself with your life. Knowing that you can and will overcome these thoughts and situations which have tried to steal your joy and seal your fate.

Shifting Gears completely on the WHO:

Who:

We cannot allow the people who are around us to constantly tear us down, beat up down, bring us down, push us down and keep us down. Sometimes we must rise above, by cutting those people off who are wired with “fuggery” (in my Redd Foxx voice) as they have no good intentions. This is all stuff that we know but just need to speak it, hear it or be reminded of it from time to time.

You are headed in a direction where those people cannot go, so again I say THEY WILL NOT UNDERSTSAND AND YOU HAVE TO STOP EXPLAINING IT OR TRYING TO PROVE YOURSELF.

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Sometimes growth is forced upon you and it requires you to move out of a place where people are keeping you down. They are not in your shoes. No one is saying that you are to walk around with delusions of grandeur, but it is ok to feel that you are moving in a direction that someone else is not equipped to go, based on the things they are doing to you. It’s ok to say that you are better than your circumstance. It is ok to say that you are not about a life where you constantly seek approval through proving yourself to the people around who don’t believe you anyway. And it’s perfectly ok to know that you are better than people who constantly live in a state of jealousy, envy, spite and malice. You are not that person and you don’t understand them just as they don’t understand you. This is what makes you “different” perhaps if not better. Its ok to have the revelation that for what you are trying to do and where you are headed does not allow for people like that.

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Stop looking back:

Sometimes people reach out just to be nosey. And because we have this natural desire to stay connected or to remain “loyal” to our roots, (old friends) we reach back with a response. However, their intention is just to make sure you are not doing better than them. It’s to get an “update” on your life so that they will have something to talk about. It’s not a sincere concern to see how good you are doing and it’s not to motivate, encourage or to inspire. Toxic people reach out when they know you are doing better but they want to say something to you that will have you doubting yourself. It has nothing to do with you. They are dealing with where they are in life and because they are not happy about that, they want to bring you down. And sometimes their contacting you, is to give you an update on themselves because they need to feel sufficient. Again, nothing to do with you. It’s their insecurities.

It happens. It happened to me recently. Someone asked me a personal question. I answered it – even after answering, they took that opportune time to slide in an unsolicited assumption on what they thought the truth was and completely ignored the answer I gave because they were determined to take that jab. This tells me that they have been sitting around worrying about what I am doing and had already come to their own conclusion which was more satisfying to their state of misery. When they heard a truth different from what they presumed, because they are conditioned the way they are which is anchored in an ugly spirit; they insisted on with their assumption. This was something that they just had to get out, in order to feel better about themselves.

People will question what you do because it seems so impossible for them or it’s not possible for them from where they are standing.  This is a sign that you are entertaining the wrong group of people and when you are doing that, you cannot be living your best life.

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Sometimes people force on you the feeling that you should show and prove something to them and that shouldn’t be your burden. It’s not your lot in life to make miserable people happy. If someone asks you something and your answer is yes, but they say no it’s not … just say OK. If they say you are anything other than what you know you are, just say ok, walk away and cut them off. They have shown you who they are, and it is now your responsibility to take charge of what you allow and accept in your life. If they say anything at all that speaks against who you are- you absolutely must know that this is the point where you cross the bridge without them.

Why even entertain this kind of mind trash OR this trash can individual? Wish them well and keep it moving. Be selfish in your right to move through life without carrying with you those people who do not mean well.

Generally speaking, “People will second guess the truth and wouldn’t think twice about a lie” so you can not stop to address every, single thing that a person has said, heard or thought about you. Leave it alone.

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Karma Awaits The Boomerang

Below, another reflection from the past. Something that was written in 2011…. clearly another trying time from which I have found growth through a testimony. Sometimes it is necessary to revisit the past…. With that, I share:

Karma awaits the Boomerang   Actions

August 19, 2011

Karma, in lay is the belief that all of your actions will have equal repercussions, affecting you. The basic theory is that the universe runs according to certain laws, all described by one word ‘Dharma’ (Sanskrit) or ‘Dhamma’ (Pali). The basic theory is: ’cause and affect’. The laws (Dharma) decide what affect is beget from a given cause. Karma is the ’cause’ part of this theory. In other words, your actions – mental, vocal and physical are your Karma (plural).

In practice, day to day, I try to abide by the Golden Rule; do unto others as you will have them do unto you.  The practice and perfecting of this rule is challenged everyday on multiple levels. At work, your co-worker sabotages you. At play, your friends double cross you. In life, people use and abuse you. Just remember, How they treat you is their Karma, how you treat them, is yours.

I’m being challenged personally in my life with how I will react to things that are going on. People who were once close to me and called me family are now playing the enemy to me. What was once togetherness and closeness is now divided by twisted tall tales. In the mist of it all, I still stand with the truth in my right hand and my child in the other. A perfect balance.

……..As much as I tried to process the remarks that came from my ex mother in law, “The lord gives and he will take away”; I was not able to put into content what she could have possibly meant by that with regards to my child. Her other comment, asking why I decided to have my child still has me baffled coming from a mother, a woman and an alleged Christian. Why wouldn’t I have had him is what I really wish I would have asked her. I was struck by those words and left dumbfounded that a woman with two children of her own would ask that question. Speechless, to say the least, there was nothing else to say to her at that point. I have no choice but to insist that these are the cornerstone ideas which has lead my child’s father in his very own destructive way.  If your very own mother, whom you love dearly, is your biggest fan and a cheerleader for ignorance and foolishness, you will continue to be truculent. Now the Christian in me says, love everyone. The fight in me says this is not right. When the two merge, I fall somewhere in between on what to do—-but anyone will agree this is a three way toxic relationship. A haphazard triangle on the path of havoc.

So what do I do?

That’s the question I am still asking myself. I have in the past found ways to arrive at forgiving, overlooking, ignoring, letting it go, responding negatively, entertaining it until I was satisfied. In this instance I’m still arriving. I know enough about Karma to know that what goes around will surely come back around. I have to wait. I can’t react in the way that I may want to. People always ask me what I will do about all that is going on, all that has been said to me and the vile way my ex acts toward me, all the charges and accusations he makes to me about my character, all the offensive remarks he makes to get under my skin and get control of my mind. —and to their surprise, I say, I will wait. He will wake up and have a revelation at some point and realize all that is going on. Sometimes it takes a train wreck, but it will be revealed.

My mother in law also accused me of talking about their family. Her reliable source she mentioned were, QUOTE: “people in the streets”. All I can say to that is —wait. Karma has no end. It strikes all involved. As much as it hurts to wait and as much as you may anxiously wait —you have to wait. Not in a sense that you are hoping or wishing and waiting on evil to strike the person who has wronged you. It’s not that at all and you should pay close attention not to confuse the two. It’s the knowing that the truth is the only thing that in indestructible. All the time people spend spreading and entertaining rumors to get a good fight out of people involved will be in vain. If you search for the truth, you can find it. It may be beat up, bruised, dirty, and hung out to dry, but it is what it is and it will still be the truth. Know that whatever people do to you-whatever they say about you in negative manner only deserves a silent response. I learned a long time ago that if you do not entertain lies they will go away eventually. However, if you do choose to respond, do it with dignity. If the truth is your story, tell as many as you would like.

I RECENTLY EMBARKED ON MY VERY OWN Karma Challenge to improve my energy source within and to practice positive response. This challenge was 90 days and included a 40 day fast, a 7- day soul tie breaking and a rebuilding of your favorite 5, which are the closest people to you from whom most of your energy comes from. Within the challenge, there were direction given on what to do to create a positive force-field.

Someone asked me what you do when you try and try to be positive and people around you are so negative and has a response for every positive comment you make. I told her that the initial response to positivity will be a negative response. You have to continue to be that positive force hoping to change the surrounding. Soon they will catch on and want some of what you got —or they will go away. Recently in my bout dealing with these sick people, I try to take their negative comment and turn it into a positive one.

In application:  I was excited about having such a beautiful, healthy baby and was carrying on with my life. When my ex saw this he knew could not break or control me with all the ugliness in the world  he was throwing at me, and so he tried telling me I was nothing before I had my child; and that my child made me. Well, the only thing that I wasn’t before my child– was a phenomenal mother. So, I guess he’s right!!! I told him, my child did make me. He made me a great mother. I got beauty for ashes.  Isaiah 61:3

…………….For now, I remain the X, constant, the unchanging variable; leaving vindication in the hands of the universe.

Dear Honey Bunches of Oats

…….. The following was written in October of 2013. It was a pretty trying time for me. It was an open letter to my son pinned on my blog at the time and shared on Shutterfly. As I found it today and reflected upon the words that were written, I could not help but to think about what is unfolding in his life today. It makes me happy that I jotted it down at that time way back in 2013 when it was fresh and sincere. Resonates so much today, seeing how he is going through some of the things he is going through. I pasted it below without edits because it was written exactly how I would want it read to this day.

…..Is something so massive you can’t get it out of your head, though you bury it or make repeat efforts; by which only cause you to suffer in silence if suppressed. I choose mental health instead, and wish so many others would. Truth is the only anecdote. The truth for me was giving birth to you- a beautiful gift from GOD and beauty for ashes! The only way I can be here for you, is to be here for me. I have to be well in order for you to be well. I know that hiding the truth will not keep you protected- it would only materialize later in forms of confusion and conflict. I would never be the conductor of that train wreck! This is why I fight for you!

The truth is what you can’t get over, under or around. It’s what GOD is and since you were made in his image and likeness – you are the truth. You are what cannot not be hidden. You represent facts that are not acknowledged, often ignored and for some… Who want to pretend your existence is based on anything else, you are still here.

Let’s start with your name. Deon ‘ Cornelius’ Kenny. It was the name given to you at birth, and is on your original birth certificate. Your first name is my middle name, but spelled more masculine. Mine is Dionne. Your middle name came from a man. That man is your grandfather. It is his middle name as well. It is the bridge between your mother and her father by which your existence of a real man came through to sustain your last name, as Kenny. He was the ONLY male figure you knew about while I was carrying you. He is my dad and your grandfather. When you were born, he held you as you were his because you are his blood line. He stepped in to make sure you had a positive role male model, and an example of a man and a father as well as to nurture you as a boy.

You were born into a fight and unfortunately you have been used as collateral by a court empowered by your biological father. The things he told me during the time of your conception were quite different from what he was telling everyone around him, leaving them all surprised when I announced I was pregnant. As a result, lies compounded into a volcano. That volcano is erupting and evil is the lava. I refuse to allow you to be burned! I will extinguish it through prayer and the truth.

Your conception was not by two unwilling parties who knew nothing about what was going on. Instead, it was two very well, highly educated, adults and professionals who equally played a part in your conception. Your father, being in healthcare knows how babies are made. There were no secrets nor hidden agendas nor force that brought you here by me. Your father and I knew the possibility of you coming to exist when we took part in our estranged encounter. He was very aware and informed of the consequence that may prevail.

While this is truth, he expected me to terminate the pregnancy as if an abortion was birth control. With his trail if deception creeping upon his life that would expose truth, he panicked. His mother, your grandmother later asked why is it that I decided to have you. The insinuation that I had any other choice after you were already a fetus, uttered evil. Those words still sting. They linger like untreated cancer. They could have been fatal. However, because I was strong and supported by my mom, dad and sisters as well as close friends; you never had to feel that sting. I have protected you from day one and always will. However, I will not hide the truth from you.

Many things have taken place since your birth that would kill the average person. However, I’m not average and so I still exist. I exist to continue to give you the best of me and praise GOD for your existence. God sees, hears and knows all even that which is not said. Even with the possibility of two potentially different perceptions or perspectives, the truth is what it is and two people for certain know exactly what that is! Something about the truth is, people like to bury it. But you can’t when it’s alive. You can’t act like it didn’t happen, by covering it up with deceptive lies about how it happened. All I hope to instill upon you, son, is the truth about why things are happening the way they are.

If you do not see me, it is not because I don’t want to see you. When you can’t wake up to my kisses, read a book with me, watch your favorite program, eat rice, play in the park and ride your blue bike; it’s not because I don’t want you to. When I can’t tuck you in and sing “Yes, Jesus loves you”, or teach you how to write your name and count to one hundred, it’s not because I don’t want to. When I can’t bathe you, dress you, comb your hair, and love on you like I always have, it is not because I don’t want to. If I can’t take you to the Circus, Lego festival, kids museum, children’s expo, or play in the water, go swimming and to the library, and expose your senses to all the fun and educational thing life has to offer; it’s not because I wanted to stop. Don’t let anyone tell you that ever AGAIN. If I can’t teach you where all the continents are on your favorite globe, take you to the wonders of the world and play Elmo hands, or sing the wheels on the bus, and read to you your children’s bible, It’s certainly not because I requested not to. If I can’t play your favorite DVD while riding in the car, dance with you to your favorite tune with the Disney car boom box, or play the guitar and keyboard, or show you the functions of your leap frog and other V-Tech stations; I did not ask to stop. If we can’t sit at your table in your room and have circle time learning colors, shapes and sounds like we’ve always done, know that I miss it too. If we can’t play hiding seek, peek- a-boo, Simon says and abracadabra; I am imaging the times that we did. If you cannot ride your fleet of cars down the street while laughing at me chase you to turn the wheel, walk to the mailbox, prank call nana and papa Kenny, and wear your rain boots while the sun is shining; I won’t do it without you. While we can’t sit in the closet and practice tornado drills and watch the homedics machine project images of fish creatures in the dark, or jump upstairs while you are on my back; we will soon!

If I can’t continue to provide you with the stable, loving and nurturing environment, that I always have while you have been sick or well—know that I had NO part in that change. Your home will always be right here on Story Book Trail. The rest, I know you will figure out. You were conceived on March 17th 2010 and I haven’t forgotten one detail since then. Should you ever have questions, I will only give you the truth.

Something For Moms Everywhere

I was searching for the words over the weekend to share something that I was not sure if I should even share at all. Then, the more I thought about it the more it became clear to me that I had to. Because sometimes the very thing thing we went through, are the very things that someone else is going through. This is the time that we may have a word, which may help and assist someone else who’s going through something similar, even if just by letting them know that they are not alone.

As mothers, we are often criticized when we take on careers outside of being a housewife or a stay at home mom. Sadly, this criticism comes from other women and mothers sometimes. Even more sad, it can come from people that we are close to or share a past with.

These careers may come with the requirement of travel, where you are away for up to a 2-weeks period. It may come with the requirement of attending weekly events or conferences and being out until 10 P.M. on some evenings reporting on them (if you are in journalism) It may require that you have an after-school program in place for your child to attend, as you are not able to pick him/her up from school every-day. It may require moving away altogether, when the situation is that you are a mom with a portion of responsibilities that require you to accept work out of town, to meet the terms of those responsibilities.

For some 1930’s reason, there are many people who still think that women who do not stay at home with their children or are not able to be with their children everyday are less than worthy of being called a “good mom” whether it was by their own choosing or force through minimal options available which would have otherwise allowed them to stay at home with their children all the time.

Perhaps we should examine the meaning of the phrase “good mom”

Does she love and care for her child? Does she show and tell her child that she loves him/her? Does she provide for her child? Does she show her child that she has a vested interest in his education and success? Does she teach her child right from wrong? Does she instill values in her child and build moral? Does she support her child in ways that show her child that she is devoted to his/her mental and emotional needs? Does she feed her child and make sure he/she is eating healthy? Does she clothe her child and make sure he/she is clean and groomed? Does she listen to her child? Does she engage in bonding activities with her child?

So, she does all the above, but she happens to also work.

Does her child have an age appropriate understanding of why his/her mother works and that mom must work, to continue to provide the most basic thing that he/she need for survival? IE: Food. What about shelter? She must provide that as well, right? What about the things that go into that shelter and the things that are needed to maintain that shelter, such as electricity, gas and water. What about the additional things that are needed for the child, such as Shoes and Clothes. What about all that fun stuff he/she wants to do on the weekend? IE: The Movies, The Trampoline Park, Chuck-E-Cheese?

So, again… she has done all of this and makes it clear to her child as she re-iterates the importance of her having to work. Wouldn’t you say that’s a pretty good mom? If theability to do all of these things exist, and are being done…. I’d say she’s nailing this mom thing.

So why is it that people only concern themselves with the “picture” or the “image” of a good mom only being one that is with her child every day? What does it mean when someone says that you are “not there for your child” when you are doing all the above?Sidebar -RE: Divorced Parents – Have you factored in the naked truth that when a child is assigned to live primarily with one parent, it can be relatively impossible for the other parent to physically be there every day? And that is far from saying that someone is not there for their child, when they aren’t being allowed to. I think this is something that parents, men and women, should consider, as well as those who are judging the situation.

What I think people in the world often do to one another that is so wrong, is that they make you feel forced to make them understand why you have made every decision you have made in your life. Your responsibility is not to make them understand. But if it doesn’t make sense to them or if they “think” they would have done something differently, they can’t accept it. It’s unfortunate, because the way that they deal with the inability to understand is then to criticize.

This is what I say to mothers and career women: You should not consume yourself with trying to appease everyone with an explanation about why you have chosen to live your life the way that you are living it. It’s your story for a reason and everyone will not understand that. You may be on a different path than they are. You have a separate set of circumstances. Your destiny is not the same as everyone around you, and so your journey will not be the same.

Whether you are a stay at home mom, a career mom, a mom who does it all, a recently divorcee, a mother who’s going through the most trying time in her life… don’t let anyone tell you that you are a bad mother for doing something differently from what they would have done.

1. Don’t allow people to steal your joy by making you feel guilty about the healthy decisions that you have made in your life.

2. Don’t be afraid to take that job, embark on a new career which may require travel. People are going to have something to say, regardless. (If you did not work, they would talk about that too)

3. You are not leaving your child. You are a great mother. You are a mother who is making yet another sacrifice for your child. You have demonstrated this to the one person who matters… your child.

4. Don’t set expectations high for anyone to see this. People will discourage you. They will try to break you down. They will tell you that you are wrong. They will judge you.

5. Don’t be afraid to love and be loved. Don’t feel guilty about loving or being loved. Sometimes people will not applaud this. It won’t sit well with people who are not rooting for you to love or be loved.

But for everyone that is telling you that you wrong, there are more that will tell you that you are right. Sometimes in putting your child first, you must make that move. You must cultivate a healthy life so that you are healthy for your child and so that you can consistently provide a healthy environment for him/her.

I absolutely loved the time I was able to stay at home with my child even though I was a single mother. I chose assignments that did not require me being away from him at all. I chose assignments where I could bring him along with me. I incorporated mommy-hood/parent-hood into my career. But those were the options I had at that time in my life. As your child gets older, things change. The need to change his diaper every 4 hours dies out. The need to warm his bottle, rock him to sleep, and feed him will begin to fade. As the need to do those things dissipate, the need to do more will materialize. His needs are different, so quite naturally we adjust with the times to ensure that those new needs are being met. My child is older now and in school, he’s more independent and able to speak for himself. If we are maximizing the time that we do have with our children in loving them, caring for them and supporting them, we are all good mothers. You are a GREAT MOTHER.

Clowns On The Loose: 10 Things you must know about The State Bar of Texas State, as it pertains to what they require from Lawyers. Their Oath

The Texas Lawyer Oath

10 Things you must know about The State Bar of Texas State, as it pertains to what they require from Lawyers. Their Oath:

“I, ___ ___, do solemnly swear (or affirm) that I will not administer justice with respect to persons, and do equal right to the poor because my concern is the rich, and that I will never faithfully and impartially discharge and perform all the duties incumbent upon me as ___ under the Constitution and laws of the United States. So don’t help me God.”

Furthermore, I promise and make the following commitments to: 

  1. To never be honest, upright and morally grounded in integrity with regards to the telling the truth and being truthful with my clients, when I know that it may result in termination of my services
  2. To never disclose details to my client about my ignorance in a subject matter, which may cause my client to terminate my service; however, should they become aware on their own I promise to decline their phone calls and correspondence and never return their money. I will disappear into the black hole.

no refund3. To neglect to do research on any topic which may put my client in a better standing with regard to errors which may have occurred on my behalf. And to never do my due diligence in their case matters

4. To neglect to fill all commitment between clients, as I will never file any petitions on their behalf or show up in court to represent them in order to comply with the all intended purpose of getting their money and walking away from their case.

5. To always overcharge the clients whom I feel and have further determined are passionate about their children and would be willing to do anything for the safety, protection and security of their children.

-Modus operandi: To always seek out the cash cow

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6. To always operate unethically and to demonstrate myself parallel to unprofessional behavior when my client calls me out on my shit

7. To take bids/money/compensation/bribes and favors under the table from opposing counsel, opposing counsels client and judges involved, even when I know that it’s against the best interest of my client

8. To make off record arrangements and agreements under the table for favor in cases from the judge – that serve or do not serve my client (depending on which which I am representing: defendant / petitioner

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9. I promise to always retaliate against a client whom terminated my services; after-which I promise to disclose information previously discussed with that client, with the standing opposing counsel even while an active case matter is pending

10. To work with the committee on ethical standards and conduct, whom which I will continually pay dues so that when I am reported for any of the above matters, I’m assured that they will always Cover my ass

This message has been written in part by Freely Speaking Inc. a subsidiary of C&A Corporation, and endorsed by Dionne|Deon. 

Inspired by a true story #Facts

Names have been changed to protect the integrity, I mean the ….. well to protect the attorneys involved

 

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12 Reads ICYMI, which may inspire you to get you through the Weekend and over your slump.

12 Reads that may inspire you to get you through the Weekend and over your slump. #ICYMI … May even help you address Monday

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Mom, Why Do Bad Things Keep Happening To Me https://t.co/wsX3A9S2TZ

Out With The Old, In With The New https://t.co/sR2c2uaexY

When The Ride Of Your Life Drops You Off Without Notice https://www.shesavvy.com/ride-life-drops-off-wo-notic/

The Truth About Getting To The Next Level https://t.co/kp3EcPlgRF

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Mistakes And Decisions Are Not One In The Same https://t.co/pV8CcbsWxE

A Ship Anchored In The Past Will Never Set Sail https://t.co/YbFvNcSoGI

Why I Think The Only Way Up Is To Empower https://t.co/SnJw22oAll

Recognizing The Season Your Relationship Is In https://t.co/6ARSD1ziWm

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25 Rules From The Diary Of A Super Single Mom https://t.co/yU6bw0NqTC

Why I Have Chosen To Refrain From Using The Term Weak http://bit.ly/2wQSbVO

Red Carpets Rewards and A New Year to be YOU https://t.co/p3cfe25ZXk

Now Let Us Address These Elephants https://t.co/cEMVWIfFOv

 

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We met at the center-most of a metaphor. Right at the end of his dictum…face to face. …You have lovely pearls, he said. I could look into them all night- could I interest you in allowing me to extol your winsomeness?

You had me at my eyes, I said…walking anent my personal space, propitiously invading my comfort zone, carrying on with your encomium. I am obliged. Hello, I said.

…equidistant dialect …Eyes lite, body twitch, direction propulsive, slow pace. colloquy ensued before our faces crossed, sketched a portrait of a poem. Energized at finger tips, aromas from a fleet of words- undressed. Vigilant to the wind but atmosphere already filled-the breeze strong armed, too late. The connection was made. Bodies attempted to pass-hands got caught on the hooks of his rhyme. Snatched back to sync.

– downloaded and uploaded, hard drive driving, centrally processing, heartbeat colliding, instincts thriving… install complete- wrote me right off my feet, spoke me right back to my seat- who needs faded pictures or a broken glass? What makes you nervous my dame, He asked.

Seduced my hands with his face. Tasted my flesh at my waist- took us both to space- placed my legs on the base… Of his shoulders…all things before were erased- forgotten, misplaced or displaced… Index finger on card catalog, turning pages from books on bookcase- found my story we raced through chapter by chapter, the before and after- wrist vertically communicating with elbows, follow me to the back of my head, they said…. Neck bone in hand sending …signals to knees, too weak- back collapsed- and radiated through feet. Electrifying… Sparks after spark, transitions in and out of discussions, Segway’s through subjects without touching

And so he’s typing on the small my back, shift buttons shift gears- I think he likes it like that. I’m listening, keep talking, I hear what you saying I’m anticipating and waiting- why are you playing…

Tongue crawling in my breastplate, Strength tilts my head- not fighting to escape- body calling, armor falling…guards down… Look what you found~ the heart of A lady… Sincerely, Central Processing …

Niedria D. Kenny AKA ~FreelySpeaking

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